i haven't been feeling like myself lately. i am often feeling like i am floating outside my body, watching the physical reality but not really taking place in it. it's weird and i don't understand it. who have i become? what am i doing? i'm going through the motions without emotion. is this what routine is? but the more i think about it, i come to the realization that "routine" is not my concern here. it's more of just an overall numbness. i don't connect with myself. my job...it's not me. but why not? argh. i don't know. i'm so confused. and definitely lost.