lost in space
Saturday, June 06, 2009
i haven't been feeling like myself lately. i am often feeling like i am floating outside my body, watching the physical reality but not really taking place in it. it's weird and i don't understand it. who have i become? what am i doing? i'm going through the motions without emotion. is this what routine is? but the more i think about it, i come to the realization that "routine" is not my concern here. it's more of just an overall numbness. i don't connect with myself. my job...it's not me. but why not? argh. i don't know. i'm so confused. and definitely lost.
simply do not ask me what this is all about, parce que je ne sais pas, mes chers
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time
Sunday, May 10, 2009
...it passes way too quickly. Years ago I had an amazing blog. I deleted it because I was blogger-stalked. Then I started this blog which obviously failed. Maybe It's time to give it another go...
simply do not ask me what this is all about, parce que je ne sais pas, mes chers
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the horror-scope of my life
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Dear Jennifer,
Here is your horoscope
for Saturday, October 14:
Excessive worry can have you trapped in a mental loop. While you may not enjoy it, you could get so obsessed over one anxiety that you stay stuck there.
Here is your horoscope
for Saturday, October 14:
Excessive worry can have you trapped in a mental loop. While you may not enjoy it, you could get so obsessed over one anxiety that you stay stuck there.
simply do not ask me what this is all about, parce que je ne sais pas, mes chers
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ill communication
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
There is so much going on with me. So many thoughts I want to share and feelings I want to express. I live in this self taught, home grown valley where emotion and logic clash. Where life is ruled by the dramatics, the enthusiasm of a passionate lunatic.
And here I am blessed with a technology that provides me with an open forum that allows me to make sense of my meandering thoughts by way of the written word...and inadequate sense of falsely promised obscurity. A perfect solution for such a dilemma.
One would think.
But when I sit here in front of the computer ready to put my fingers to the keyboard and enter this forum everything goes...blank.
I know. Totally lame.
And here I am blessed with a technology that provides me with an open forum that allows me to make sense of my meandering thoughts by way of the written word...and inadequate sense of falsely promised obscurity. A perfect solution for such a dilemma.
One would think.
But when I sit here in front of the computer ready to put my fingers to the keyboard and enter this forum everything goes...blank.
I know. Totally lame.
simply do not ask me what this is all about, parce que je ne sais pas, mes chers
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i heart september
Sunday, September 24, 2006
And so another weekend passes by. Damn, they just go by to fast if you ask me. In twelve hours time I'll be back at work and a slave to the 9 and 5. Or actually, the 7 and 3:45. Not quite as musical. Although this week starts the new half-day promotion. By working an extra 30 minutes a day we get to have a half-day every other week. It's not exactly thrilling, but hey, I'll take whatever I can get. I certainly don't mind only having to work four hours every other Friday. That's cool with me. Bring it on, I say. Bring. It. On.
But, until tomorrow, this is still considered the weekend and I'm totally excited because two of my favorite shows are back with new brand new episodes. God, I love September. We are finally out of rerun hell. I'm so excited I could almost do a dance.
I'm a big fan of the television for those of you who haven't been able to guess. And I make no apology for it.
Tonight both Cold Case and Without A Trace are back with a vengeance. It's also a new night for Without A Trace and it's kind fucking up my routine. But I figure routines need to be fucked up every now and again or otherwise you get stuck in a rut. And I certainly wouldn't want that to happen. But digress. New night or not, I'm a happy girl.
As for everything else...I saw Thank You For Smoking and American Splendor this weekend. I am NOT a movie review kind of gal, so I'm not even going to get into it except to say the first was awesome and the latter...erm...not so much. It was alright but nothing I would really recommend. I do however recommend Thank You For Smoking. I quite enjoyed it.
As for now...I'm writing this while baking brownies. Yes, I'm baking. I like baking and quite frankly I'm pretty good at it. But this isn't baking for personal pleasure. We are celebrating my bosses birthday this week and it would be an understatement to say that she loves celebrating her birthday. She has not been shy in admitting she want a big ol' huppla. So we are accomdating. Monday starts with my brownies. Everybody else in the unit has a day to bring in some kind of goody. And then I believe on Thursday it ends with us taking her out to lunch.
*shrugs*
I'll all relative to me. I just go with it. You have to participate in office politics otherwise you'll be damned and ostracized. And I certainly don't need that. Plus, I have to admit, it's kinda fun. Things like this certainly help to pass the time on the dreaded 9 to 5 (aka: 7-3:45).
And I'm certainly not one to pass up a brownie or a slice of cake...or two. My waist line is proof of that.
But, until tomorrow, this is still considered the weekend and I'm totally excited because two of my favorite shows are back with new brand new episodes. God, I love September. We are finally out of rerun hell. I'm so excited I could almost do a dance.
I'm a big fan of the television for those of you who haven't been able to guess. And I make no apology for it.
Tonight both Cold Case and Without A Trace are back with a vengeance. It's also a new night for Without A Trace and it's kind fucking up my routine. But I figure routines need to be fucked up every now and again or otherwise you get stuck in a rut. And I certainly wouldn't want that to happen. But digress. New night or not, I'm a happy girl.
As for everything else...I saw Thank You For Smoking and American Splendor this weekend. I am NOT a movie review kind of gal, so I'm not even going to get into it except to say the first was awesome and the latter...erm...not so much. It was alright but nothing I would really recommend. I do however recommend Thank You For Smoking. I quite enjoyed it.
As for now...I'm writing this while baking brownies. Yes, I'm baking. I like baking and quite frankly I'm pretty good at it. But this isn't baking for personal pleasure. We are celebrating my bosses birthday this week and it would be an understatement to say that she loves celebrating her birthday. She has not been shy in admitting she want a big ol' huppla. So we are accomdating. Monday starts with my brownies. Everybody else in the unit has a day to bring in some kind of goody. And then I believe on Thursday it ends with us taking her out to lunch.
*shrugs*
I'll all relative to me. I just go with it. You have to participate in office politics otherwise you'll be damned and ostracized. And I certainly don't need that. Plus, I have to admit, it's kinda fun. Things like this certainly help to pass the time on the dreaded 9 to 5 (aka: 7-3:45).
And I'm certainly not one to pass up a brownie or a slice of cake...or two. My waist line is proof of that.
simply do not ask me what this is all about, parce que je ne sais pas, mes chers
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and so begins year 5767
Friday, September 22, 2006
From the mouth of a Jewish Goddess to the ears of surrounding Gentiles...
L'shanah tovah tikatev v'taihatem
also known as Happy New Year
L'shanah tovah tikatev v'taihatem
also known as Happy New Year
simply do not ask me what this is all about, parce que je ne sais pas, mes chers
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always on the day you return to work, instead of the day off
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
I had a lot to do at work today having just come off a four day weekend. Find my new desk and unpack all my shit. Sort through an enormously high amount of accumulated voice mail and email. Oh, good lord was there a lot of email to get through. Not to mention the snail mail. Two extra days worth. Oh the joy.
But it was okay. I was ready to go. Four days of doing nothing but eating to my gluttonous extent proved worthy to its relaxing reputation. I can go back to work, I thought. I'm rejuvenate and ready to go.
But I was wrong. My car had other plans for me. She thought breaking down would be a fun thing to do. She thought it might bring a smile my face, a chuckle to my morning glory. Oh, that prankster. A riot full of laughs.
The bitch. Cars are evil and I told her so.
<--- The devil herself
A MUCH too expensive cab ride later I show up to work only a half our late. Two hours later the car is being towed to the Service Center for its check-up and I anxiously await a word we all know as "expense." Not surprisingly, there is no news until nearly 5pm, and then there is all the news I can handle. Blah blah blah...something about a battery and corrosion and not correctly fitting...blah blah blah...$115.00 for parts, service and labor. $115.00! I don't know whether laugh or cry. It could have been A LOT worse...but then it didn't have to happen at all.
As of now the car is back in parking spot #56 and I can still afford to eat. So you be the judge.
But it was okay. I was ready to go. Four days of doing nothing but eating to my gluttonous extent proved worthy to its relaxing reputation. I can go back to work, I thought. I'm rejuvenate and ready to go.
But I was wrong. My car had other plans for me. She thought breaking down would be a fun thing to do. She thought it might bring a smile my face, a chuckle to my morning glory. Oh, that prankster. A riot full of laughs.
The bitch. Cars are evil and I told her so.
<--- The devil herself
A MUCH too expensive cab ride later I show up to work only a half our late. Two hours later the car is being towed to the Service Center for its check-up and I anxiously await a word we all know as "expense." Not surprisingly, there is no news until nearly 5pm, and then there is all the news I can handle. Blah blah blah...something about a battery and corrosion and not correctly fitting...blah blah blah...$115.00 for parts, service and labor. $115.00! I don't know whether laugh or cry. It could have been A LOT worse...but then it didn't have to happen at all.
As of now the car is back in parking spot #56 and I can still afford to eat. So you be the judge.
simply do not ask me what this is all about, parce que je ne sais pas, mes chers
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